By Amina Deb, In5d.com
Thankfully we are receiving much support and encouragement to let go of that which no longer supports us, that which no longer resonates with love and our version of joy.
We are encouraged to ask, “Do I feel good when in the company of this person?”; “Do I feel good in this situation?” If the answer is no, we are championed to let them or it go.
Generously we are reminded that none of this is personal, that it is merely a function of the laws of physics. Feeling “good” and feeling “love” is a higher vibration then the alternatives.
We are reminded that to truly be in service means remaining in the highest vibration possible, remaining engaged with people and situations supporting that vibrational frequency.
If we choose to remain engaged with people and situations where love, peace and joy are not being felt means we are choosing to lower our vibrational frequency in order to remain engaged. This is just physics. This is just the way it IS.
May my personal journey with this be of some help, offer a measure of encouragement, give peace and hope to those of you facing an invitation to let go. I am currently estranged from my daughter and am forbidden any contact with my grandchildren who I deeply adore and who deeply adore me. My crime?… I choose to live in joy and peace instead of continuing to engage in situations that are no longer tolerable or supportive.
Over a period of six months, I started saying no. I started having respect for myself. I began to see that I have value in who I am, just as I am. I began, with very small steps at first, to take back control of my life, to reclaim my self-respect, to value myself as a unique, quirky, loving, playful individual.
Having a mother that was no longer “controllable” was not within my daughter’s comfort zone. When fractures began appearing in our relationship, I invited my daughter to work together in finding a compromise where we both felt heard. I asked for discussions, I pleaded for mutual understanding. It was all for naught. Over and over I was told that 100% compliance was my only option. The consummate rebel in me came to life and reared her head finally saying “no”!
Thus, I was punished. My son charged me with being a narcissist. (FYI… narcissists do not desire compromise or understanding. They care only about and will use whatever means necessary to ensure 100% submission and conformity). My daughter completely cut me off.
I have, over the months, reached out on a number of occasions – Nothing. Finally I decided to respect her wishes and walk away. Before Christmas I received a text from my daughter saying that the “distance between us was due to my lack of agreement.” My response was acknowledging that truth, but I did add that lack of agreement in the past did not doom lack of agreement in the future. We would never know if it is possible to find the place where we BOTH felt heard, loved, understood and respected; not necessarily agreed with, but loved and respected in spite of a diversity in experience, perception and belief if we didn’t give it a try.
Ooops… still not willing to surrender and comply so back to being punished was my fate. Only my sisters and dad know all of the details. They are chomping at the bit to intervene and, to use a good ‘ole Texas phrase, jerk a knot in my daughter’s tail. Out of love and respect for me, for my wishes, they are reluctantly refraining from taking action.
Has this been easy? NO! Has this been painful? YOU BET! Am I tempted to cave and submit to her demands? ABSOLUTELY NOT…. I will die first. My stance is not out of stubbornness and neither is it born from narcissism. It comes from seeing and believing in the bigger picture. Love.
This situation has taught me more about love and respect then everything in my 64 years combined. I feel more unconditional love for my daughter than I ever thought possible and it continues to grow daily.
I feel far more connected to my grandchildren than ever before. I completely respect my daughter’s right to carry whatever belief she chooses to have about me. I honor and bow to her choice to cut me out of her life as well as withhold her children from the loving arms of their grandmother. I will forever fight for her right to have whatever definitions, beliefs and perceptions she chooses regardless of the “cost” to me personally.
The most loving thing I can do, the most important action I can take for myself, my daughter, my grandchildren and for all of creation is to hold my highest vibration, to express every aspect of my unique, quirky, loving, playful self because that is how the unconditional love from and of Source moves through me.
I am deeply humbled and overcome with gratitude for this dance, journey, experience and gift my daughter has given me. She is responsible for my courage to be ok with being me. Her actions forced me to first find and then stand in my core essence and truth. My daughter gave me the greatest gift of all: the freedom to be myself.
All the articles published thus far through in5D from me have sprung from what I have learned through this process with her. She has polished, purified and transformed my life. She has proven that regardless of outer appearances, there is only Love.
I implore each of you… trust what is being written about letting go of what lowers your vibration. Believe it will be alright in the end. Have no fear because love and connection just IS. It can NEVER be severed or taken away from you!
Know beyond a shadow of a doubt that letting go will burn away ALL illusions of separation and leave you standing as a burning flame of love in the darkness.
Years ago someone told me that if you catch on fire with enthusiasm, people will come from miles around to watch you burn.
Watch me burn! I choose and will always choose love and joy.
Allow the warmth from my fire to quicken your heart and melt the chains of fear. These chains are only an illusion.
Know my flames stand as a testament to the fact that nothing… NOTHING exists but Love!
Watch me burn…. I burn in and with Love.
Wishing you each joyful and loving journeys,
About the author: Amina Deb Lewis has been a seeker and student in esoteric, spiritual and scientific studies for over 40 years. As the proverbial square peg in a world of round holes, her greatest joy in is sharing various perspectives and tools on living your Individual Unique Truth to its fullest capacity possible. Contact info: Deborah@TransformingToEssence.com